i want to sit, alone, in the dark and embrace
the emptiness, like warm pillows, in a cold room
i want to be nothing, in nothing, with nothing
i want nothing from nothing
no thing
not think
untied
i want to be
not
no knots
naught
i want to unexist
calmly, happily and quietly
alone
i want
to not want
i want to not
i want to
i want
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