CHOOSE TO LOSE THE ABUSE

CHOOSE TO LOSE THE ABUSE

what do you do?
when you miss someone who’s never good to you?

what do you do?
when you love someone who forgets about you
until they need you
to undo the damage they did by leaving you?

what do you do?
when your love has no trust?
but you miss someone so bad
its like your hit by a bus?
or kicked in the nuts?

what do you do?
when someone’s beautiful
but when ever they speak to you
its a shriek from the blue
and its blood that they seek from you?

its so bleak
but you cant leave
or breathe

what do you do?

when you’re addicted
to being conflicted

what do you do?
when you are insistent
on the resistant?

when your on a mission
like a holy religion

and they are only persistent
on being distant
blowing goodbye kisses
that sound like lies, and hisses

but then they come back
only
when they feel so lonely

they come and say hold me
but just for the moment

what do you do
when you go thru hell
for someone who’s heaven
is loving someone else?

what do you do?
when you’re just a crutch?
when you want to make love
but just end up fucked?

what do you do?
after you tell them you’re thru?
and only feel doomed and confused?
how can you choose to not be abused
if saying goodbye feels like a lie, just a ruse

what do you do?

when your
depressed from neglect
and lack of respect
and your whole life feels wrecked
and you cant really rest
or feel your breath in your chest

what do you do?

i have no answers
just questions

i stand here and pour my essence
into this poem

i sit here alone
wondering where did she go?

what do you do?

how can you clean the disdain from your heart?
just stop complaining and turn your pain into art.

what can you do?

but say
i love you
you fool