before you infer that the curse that made things worse
was how easily hurt I was by the dirt
that you cast upon my name
whose to say whose to blame
we were incredibly to ready to react
tense like a rubber band abound to snap
i’d try if I could to take it back
but I said what I said and you said what you said
and there’s no delete button in each others head
so I make money slowly but steady
to stay all right
but I still call your name from my bed every night
but when im deepest asleep thats when I feel free
no longer caged by the need to have you near me
but its not cuz im over my addiction to you
its just in my dreams after all we been through
it wasnt enough to tear us in two
and I would wake up with you as my wife
if my imagination could only rewind real life
the stories we keep are matter of mind
how long do we weep of sadder times
slashin our wrist with a blade that cuts lines
coked up and broke as we choke on our cries
I cant deny how much I despise
the idea of putting more tears in your eyes
after all of these years I can finally surmise
maybe I wasnt always a good guy
but I pay many ways for the shame ive obtained
and I rehears what i’d say if I could plead my case
my scabs become scars but hey thats ok
that I prey every day that I feel the suns rays
that the one that I love is no longer in pain