you know what im doing
when youre out there saying hateful things about me?
cursing my name
bending every ear you see with horrors you percieve as my intention
you know what im doing
while youre out there with the evil eye
praying for my pain
destroying my name with slander
casting your dark spells
you know what im doing
while yourE out there
meditating on my demise
remembering me thru a haze of pain
twisting me into your sick vision of some villian you thought i was intent to be
you know what im doing
while you punish me with your bidden demons
while you assualt me with your heartless darkness
while blame me for the poison that chocked our love to a slab of flesh that has rotten for years
well mostly i’ve just missed you
and have wanted to tell you im sorry
for the pain i put you thru
when i wasnt strong enough for the pain you put me thru
and i want to tell you im glad you got clean
and that you got healthy
in your mind and body
and in your pleasures and profession
i guess
while you prayed for my pain
and i prayed for yours to end
we proved how powerful we are
enough to make our prayers come true
maybe one day
you will call off the angry gods
you send for me like barking dogs
they know i’ve always loved you
they do our bidding
as they play us both for fools