i get so depressed
when she forgets to injest
that fake feeling of success
that allows her to rest
and show others respect
i wish i was dead
when my mom goes off her meds
i dont want to live
when she makes me feel like shit
but how else can it go?
hell is all she knows
that is until she takes
what ever she’s prescribed
that makes her feel like her life
is worth living
so i put down the knife
before my wrists are sliced
this time
and ask god to forgive me
but
i wish i was dead
when my mom goes off her meds
she’s so fucking rude
it makes me confused
what else can i do
why does she put me thru
pain she doesnt have to
they tell me its madness
a chemical imbalance
but im just not having it
i think she chooses malice
sucks it down like from chalice
and it drips from her lips like a dog gone rabid
that is until she takes her little pill
then i dont feel so ill
and i dont want to kill
myself
i love her
when she’s someone else
i wish i was dead
when my mom goes off her meds