you ever get so stressed out
i think they call it traumatized
that your autonomic breathing stops?
like you have to will yourself to breath?
pull in? push out?
like you have to lie there in bed
moving your belly to breath?
like the air is heavy?
like, what happens is,
when you should breath
your throat just locks up?
and then some invisible elephant steps on your chest?
you just lock up entirely?
getting crushed by the nothingness within?
and your lungs burn?
cuz they expect sweetness?
and they get nothing?
like you?
it comes
and goes
like a wave
here for no reason
and gone for no reason
like her.