i dont have excuses for when i get this stupid
i just fuckin lose it i dont now why i do it
i know its just plain foolish
to be so blindly ruthless
but sometimes i feel so useless
dont know how to get thru this
everthings so painful
my heart angry and disdainful
because of the way you say you’ll
be there but never came thru
its like my nightmares came tru
a promise made so fake you’ll
have to do a take two
i cant believe how much i hate you
its not like i want to
but anger sometimes haunts you
and after all you know i’ve gone thru
you see why i’d like to stomp you
its not that i like violence
but sometimes your absence and its silence
screams at me like sirens
after tearing off my eyelids
you made such a promise
and when you broke it you flaunted
how i kept you so vaunted
like i wanted to be daunted
i just get confused
by continued abuse
why do you run this ruse
do you win when i lose?
what game are you playing
what dragon are you slaying
what options are you weighing
why is it always raining
contempt or complaining
while we wither greying
i guess thats the main thing
how the clock just keeps on changing
how the calendars arranging
for time to keep on straining
our hearts till one day the training
breaks them from their cold and hardened casings
i wonder how often
we’ll get hit till our scars soften
i have bruises but dont want them
we keep creeping to our coffins
might as well play possom
drop dead and start rotting
cuz it seems theres just no stopping
the damage we are causing
i would give gladly
anything so happily
to keep things from going badly
but it seem you just have to be mad at me
and i never seem to fix it
actually like an idiot
i pretend i dont give a shit
but its like i have sickness
an ever present illness
i keep picking at it till its
gangraneous and putrid
like every day were killing cupids
choke them dead with stupid bullshit
i know this poem is nothing
just another home for our suffering
but let me tell you something
believe me, i was bluffing
every stupid threat
is just another step
to that cold and lonely bed
where i’ll love you till im dead
awake wondering where you went.
and why i said what i said.
i dont have excuses for when i get this stupid
i just fuckin lose it. i dont now why i do it