i love her because she’s beautiful
and she gives me the broken feeling
i got addicted to
when mommy and daddy would fight
and break us,
our peaceful family,
to pieces
throw dishes that shattered all hope of happiness
for no reason
when i was a baby
shes lovely, gorgeuos
sexy and exciting
and she’s hell
pure hell
such hell
she reminds me of the home
i fought so long
and hard
to run away from
by writing my way thru
the suffering
with the poetry
that we forgot to study
she leaves me
to seek the buddha
once again